I am the morning, cold and anew
The wake of the day leaves you confused

just terrible
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For once I'm actually not tired after school. This is a really surprising day.

In other news...

Mike Tyson's daughter died on a treadmill

That's just terrible

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....Sundays

Lmao


I want this


I think on halloween I'm gonna be him

Brilliant!


I doubt I'm the first to ever come up with that idea

ever

I usually don't make a fuss about things like this but every time I bite one of these things i have a micro-orgasm in my mouth

Word of Mouth

I recently decided to become a vegetarian again. So far it's been working out a lot better than previous attempts, but I've also been eating more. IDK what to do with myself at times. I'm starting to run again as well, I'd like to see how long that lasts; my biggest problem is commitment and I've found others to have this same problem as an equal epidemic burdening their lives. I say F#@K THAT. As of today I'm keeping commitments; tired of failing; tired of lying...to myself.

Seeing as how I was a huge fuck up the past 2 years, next year I'm going to have to work omega hard just to graduate. It's not like this is something I'm incapable of doing it's just that I'm lazy and as stated previously suck at keeping myself committed to a task.


My internet is constantly turning on and off and it's really pissing me off.

This past weekend made me realize exactly how different people have extremely different philosophies on life . Well, I shouldn't say made me realize, I've though and pondered on these things before but it was just reintroduced into my mind due to an unexpected experience. Whilst hanging out with friends all night on Saturday some guy we were chilling with randomly sliced some other guys wrist for no reason while a fight was going on. I mean, I was baffled as towards how in any way this behavior could be accepted by anyone from any walk of life. Godforbid it was me who got sliced, I would be in jail right now for the amount of carnage that would have resulted due to my own perception of justice. When it comes to the THUG LIFE, you've got to wonder if behind the media that loves to glamorize this lifestyle, if they even realize that...things are real out here. Shit happens and has been happening and shit is fucked up bad. The liberal in me really couldn't stand for such actions, but the slacker and the realist in me balanced my actions and ultimately led me to do nothing that I would possibly regret later. And whats surreal is how nice things are behind the action.

As I continue to experience life more and more I've noticed my reactions to certain things have changed and it's all a fundamental example of a quote I heard one which states

"You can get used to anything?"

I'm not sure exactly who it was that said this but it's stuck in my head and it's made me think constantly about how much my ideologies on almost every subject have changed. From basics like family and friends to more trivial things like hobbies, as well as positions on sex, drugs, and all that jazz.

I wonder how other people's thoughts have been molded over time and if anyone is the same person they were mentally five years ago. It seems almost impossible to me now, but I've still got time to think it over.

"If you're not a liberal when you're 25, you have no heart. If you're not a conservative by the time you're 35, you have no brain."
- Winston Churchill

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I Love This

UNFORGIVABLE

Twisting and turning
it was clear, you were bleeding

They looked away

Tears in your eyes
Fear just in time
arise

As they looked away

Hoping To Realize why it has to be this way
Never to realize that it has to be this way

They Looked away

Pride and promise;
An evaluation is all but needed,
unjust,
far away

Raise the Mugs, raise the torches
were no longer roaches
not today

Tomorrow is hours away
As They looked away

apprehension

As of late pretty much everyone has been a dick.
WTF is going on?

I walked home in the pouring rain today for the first time in a while.
I remembered during this time that I used to love going out whenever it would rain and embracing it as it fell into my eyes, making them sore and red.








I'm not cool anymore
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Where is my mind?

After a while those brief encounters
just really couldn't last
Used to smile when I,
Used to see you smile and,
hear your subtle laughs
Now I cant stand to think the name
Your name, is not the same

Translucence

Such a mystery
Like an invisible wall
Such said destiny
But we don't believe at all
Smile, and look
look the other way
look for faux fixations
and dreams behind the fog
The closest things are the hardest to see
And the farther away they seem
All along you sang a song
but dare not sing near me
So afraid and I know not why
Maybe its because
You Believed

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The only thing that scares you is truth
You FUCKING LYING SCUM

Existence

Filled with anxiety
Thinking...
You could be a little nicer
Heed the warning, a storm is coming
And its unlikely, That I'll be dead
Can't say the same for you, I always knew this day would come
I turned around and saw your frown
That was the first sign

I saw observe and report
Pretty damn funny
Seth rogen was great

He said, She said

I'm like always tired and I really hate it so much.
I just don't understand what makes the human body tired.
When I refrain doing things I end up just falling asleep.
I think it's cause I'm fat, apparently fat people sleep a lot.
But what do I know I'm just some guy blogging about sleeping.
Its a terrible habit and I'm gonna try and stop it from happening by just doing everything that I have to do. Maybe that'll work. Maybe they were right!!!!!

In any case, I'm gonna start leaving these things off with questions for you to ponder about


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Why do you drive on a parkway and park in a driveway?

Refrain From

If ignorance is bliss
Then only a madman can come to a realization

Sanity is insane

...

For a while I was thinking about just ignoring this blog here, and honestly I have no justifiable reason for it. The truth is I'm a very lazy person, and laziness never justifies any non-action. However, as of late I've been feeling really philosophical again and have been pondering much about my future. There's so much going on world its kinda hard to know which area or agenda to keep your eyes on and follow or believe.There's so many lies told and cover ups and propaganda going on that I find myself having a constant change in my views on virtually every topic from big issues like economics to little issues like abortion. I feel as if I cant come to a conclusion about what's morally right or wrong because the media has perverted my mind and led me on a path of confusion. As hard as I try I can't envision a world within next couple years that will be half as fucked up as things are today. I'm tired now, so I'll advance on this later.

This.

Well my blackberry was kinda messed up so i got a new one shipped to me and i have to mail in my old one, before i mail it in i wanna post this poem I wrote couple weeks ago that i had saved on my phone. I like this one a lot, hopefully you will too.

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This

Spaced out
Liars sleep sound
The myth of guilt
Troubles me,
and me alone

Abnormal Decisions
Formed through tragedy
Enveloped through time

Disgust through mistrust
Boiled to the core

This is my problem
This is my chance
This is my anchor
This is my...

Right


With tensions rising
I'd advise you not to stand there
We can televise it
You'd better recognize that
I'm not here to make you laugh

This is my time
This time I will triupmph
This time I can laugh.....

Last

White as snow
Beautiful, some might say
The liar has awoken
And you know you cannot stay

The Mailman

I was fucking pissed when i wrote this song
I think it came out halfway decent

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Where'd my morals go
shallow and alone
too cool to conform
and it doesn't even matter
leave my thoughts alone
you'll never see my mind
I applaud your sincerity
although i doubt its sincere

I have a message for you
signed by God himself
I have a message for you
Your going to hell

And now with death knocking on your door,
you understand my dream,
is a dream come true,
are you ready for the truth?

Your heart belongs to me!
Your heart belongs to me!


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Warrior Diet

So I stumbled upon some interesting information as of late about health and foods and how to stay strong and live long. There's this guy named Ori Hofmekler who created this thing called the warrior diet and it seems really interesting. So I'm gonna test my self with it for about 50 days, and if I see results I'll go even farther and envelop it into my lifestyle. There's plenty of things to look forward to this year for me. In 2 days Obama gets innaugarated as the new President and I think that's awesome cause he seems to me to have a steady head and I hope he does good, we need him to good. Also tomorrow is MLK Jr. day and I'm going to a concert to see Agraceful which should be pretty fun. My band is starting out and I'm trying more and more now to grasp my own vocal skills, seeing as how I'm the vocalist hehe. I've got the english regents coming up and I have no doubt in my mind that I'll ace that shit. I've started taking classes for Syracuse University in my AoIT class so that should be pretty interesting. All this stuffs kinda boring sorry for wasting you guys' time. Anyways.....

God Bless
and Good Night

Release

Only when it's quiet
I allow myself to think

Forgetful but I'll never forget

Hyper, I want some more
Tired now like never before

Forgetful but I'll never forget

Makeshift dreams, I'll never be real
Pass it around so I can forget how to feel

Forgetful but I'll never forget

Happy New Year!

well for those who care, I can tell by my polls on the side that some people actually do stop on by and read my little rants. Thank all of you

there will be plenty more to come this year

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