Hit Em Where It Hurts

Walk steady
trust me i know
hard to keep your head up
when your always on the floor

take advantage
disrespect
your on the floor
soaking wet

sarcastic,
sardonic,
ironic,
NOW!

ease the pain, smear the name
light a match, play a game
harder now than ever before
let it go, and rest assured
soon this'll be over
soon it'll be on the floor

HIT EM WHERE IT HURTS

fragile and frail
raining, your so pale
long way to go
will i ever go away

taken all opulence
wary and nonchalant
raspy and cold
still raining
still a long way to go

wishing for resilience
but its so damn hard
your stubborn
and now we are one

your prudence has preceded you
easier than you thought
took things to the next level
with a new found reverence
and taste for blood

HIT EM WHERE IT HURTS

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*note*

Maybe it's a little confusing but I've found confusion to be the ultimate wisdom when it comes to certain things. This is a purely a daydream I had of a teacher in a class of mine. She gave me this weird vibe, a vibe that made me think there was a story to tell. This is that story that I made in order to suppress my thoughts on the matter. MAke's for some cool lyrics though seeing as how I'm trying to start a band, lately everything seems to word itself and become a little more poetic in my little world. I have an ear and throat infection so I didn't go to school today, I wonder if anyone missed me.

Green Towel

when the sun doesnt shine
will you be mine

you say love is blind
then death must see clearly

20/20
a perfect score
make it work
i was so sure

she came one day
threw my toys away
grow up
an option?
rather a demand
oh mother nature
oh mother why

conserving
deserving
OBSERVING
converging
deterring!

The truth is I've lied
every time i made you cry
every time you wanted me to die


I can see

boo!

Today David and I went to go donate blood at some church and we both failed miserably. He wasn't eligible because his ID didn't have his birthday on it so he had no way of proving his birth date; then I was denied because I didn't have a permission slip from a parent. Luckily we managed to eat a great deal of food there before finding out the bad news.

As for details on things going on it seems as if I'm finally able to sleep at night again. Weird how one day I just started feeling tired again. One of my favorite teacher's, Mr. Texler might be transferred to another school after thanksgiving so I'm kinda bummed out about that. I was actually so mad I wrote a letter to the superintendent of schools and as it turns out he's gonna come to my school tomorrow and smooth things out I guess. Anyways, I've been playing this game I got called Star Ocean and it's pretty addicting. Blah, blahh, blahhh...... poetry time.


wow i really cant think right now at all
IDK whats going on I'll get back to you ASAP
with something great

cereal

Last night was one of the most inspirational nights of my life. Seeing Dir en Grey live was unlike any other experience I've ever had. Every single person in that band brings something to the table, but even with all of their greatness Kyo's vocal skills are mesmerizing, imaginative, and limitless. I was left almost speechless at the awesomeness of their skills. Unfortunately, there was way too many girls there who were scared to leave their boyfriends side so there was no moshing, but i got over it. After the show I got my Uroboros CD signed by all of them and shook all their hands. Kyo was last and I told him he was "fucking amazing and truly inspiration" followed by a heavy as hell pound that only real G's like him can give. The Human Abstract was there too and they did great as well. They're performance was actually better than the first time I saw them at Warped Tour '08, looked like they picked up some new tricks or something. Can't wait to see them again (:

Germinate

Lately life's been kinda stressful. Nothing I want to do seems possible; I can't sleep at night, I can't manage to focus on things, I'm constantly losing track of time or forgetting to do something really important. I just can't grasp on what the problem is. Even my eating habits are all fucked up. I'm never hungry when i should be, sometimes I just wont be hungry for days. All of these things have led to problems in school and at home with my family. Why?


Anyways, on friday me and two friends are going to see Dir en Grey and The Human Abstract at Terminal 5. I haven't been to a show since seeing Hollywood Undead at The Knitting Factory. I couldn't mosh at that show so it's been a while since I've let loose and moshed to my hearts content. Hopefully this show will relieve some of the tension I've built within myself, I really do hope so.

Finally

Well, I guess it's been a while since my last post. The world has sorta changed, liberalism pulled through and Barack Obama was elected president. I cant tell you how joyed I was on election night to know that a new historical era was hopefully about to begin. I do believe that Obama is not just an idealist and will actually get shit done.

I've been sorta busy lately dealing with school, and work, and of course SOCOM. My uncle brought me with him this past weekend to Six Flags Great Escape Lodge in Lake George, NY. I must say it was rather cool; basically it was an indoor water park located across the street from Six Flags. This place was really really far away, it took us almsot 5 hours to drive there from the bronx. One thing that kinda bummed me out was how hot so many of the girls there were. It's not that I'm gay or anything like that but I just wish I had a better appearance. Really tired of this being fat bullshit. It just sucks cause I know I can get better, and I try hard also but nothings seeming to work. I'm gonna just start beasting really hard. I'm actually gonna go start as soon as I'm done with this blog. I'm kinda tired but who gives a shit. Well hopefully I'll be able to write more on this thing, my laptop charger ripped so that's mainly why I havn't been on to much. I'll end this with a poem I'm going to think of right... now..........


Contradictions

Familiar places
familar names
like deja vu
but not the same
never the same

Weak at the mouth
nothing to say
hard to determine
when to work
when to play
I'm in trouble
I'm scared
but never afraid

Always alone
Always at bay

Always alone
with something to say

Work Out

blinding lights, tell me who i am
they reveal the secrets that only i should know
hard as i try, i cant shake my anxiety
it does not control me like others claim
what is this,
this comfort,
this ideal
everyone knows who i am
everyone except me
ironically i've compromised with myself
this acceptance
this conformity
i'm not sure if i like it
i don't know what to feel
so artificial
so unnatural
i lay here and wander

it cant be this hard
im doing it to myself
this isnt artificial
its real
as real as real gets

im still a shallow believer
who must doubt myself again and again

im a thinker
philosophy is my greatest friend
as well as my greatest fear

PS3

so i got my own PS3 today
its an 80 GB

(:

Very Very awesome

my PSN is stillcheezy so if you wanna play just add me i guess
getting SOCOM: CONFRONTATION tomorrow
this will consume most of my time for quite a while




Today in english i was acting as Johnny Friendly in the play On The Waterfront
I got to say fuck
it was cool
i think i'm the smartest person in that class
niggas don't know bout my intellects

WTF is Juice?

(:

this is my first post
yay!!!!


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don't expect much but some poetry and possible short stories
maybe reviews, rants, and random thoughts